once i dreamed of an angel
that flew upwards and around me
with a lyric and a grace that sparked the envy of creation

then i saw crimson teeth
and i heard a slight whimper
as that angel's wings
strained under the weight of envy turned to pity
for she had danced with shadows

and the last thing i remember
were bloodstained feathers floating gently to my feet

in the waking dream that followed
this lilly before me opens
implying that it may be opening for me
i water its roots with a comatose dream
praying and begging that this new life
might set a cold, worn love ablaze

but it never fully blooms
since the roots are choking
on a legacy that you passed to me

heavy, and stained with blood
you will always hang around my neck

as a reminder that you are there
when i find anothers touch
and especially when i don't

i hope you are suffering
and i hope you can answer
for this bitterness in the springs of Venus
and the barren sky that surrounds this burning star

i hope it hurts you as much as you hurt me
when i kill all desire to return to you

because it's time this circle ends

i will make my own salvation without your heaven
and i will build it on the foundation of a broken promise
then i will find everything i ever hid away
that fateful day
when your feathers brushed my cheek
and landed softly at my feet

stained with virgin blood

and then, my love
i will evolve into something greater than what i am

or at least

into something greater than you

you

are

my

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